CHAPTER THREE
The kids at Hailsham were
called students; they thought of themselves as students. At Ingersoll, we were
boarders. Our facility had an insignia discreetly engraved just above its civic
address, and the iron-coloured bus we boarded for our dollar store outings had
textured identification stickers pasted on the front and back which were clones
to the original. The effect was pretty creepy, and made all of us feel ashamed,
as though we were convicted felons.
I really started to enjoy my time with Mr. Steeple. He never looked at me with pity or revulsion. He acted like I imagined a dad would, and I pretended that he was mine. I fantasised that passersby would glance at the two of us together and assume thatโs what we were to each other, but if Iโd given it any real thought, I would have known that we looked like what we were: a uniformed bus-driver and a uniformed donor.
One mid-morning in early May, I
was standing outside our bus, gobbling the caramel-centered sweets that Mr.
Steeple offered me. We normally werenโt allowed to eat sweets except on special
occasions, but Mr. Steeple coaxed me, โCโmon now, love. Try one. Iโll bet
anything youโll fancy it. Theyโre only harmful if you eat handfuls of them.โ
And so I tried one and it tasted lovely. I had never imagined that food could
have so much sweet flavour and such soothing texture. When I had finally sucked
all the life out of that sweet, even the hard shell, I murmured, โMr. Steeple,
that was wonderful. Why are sweets not allowed? I had been instructed that they
were toxic, poison, nasty bits of tooth-rot, but how can something that tastes
this good be bad for you?โ
So Mr. Steeple explained to me
that donorsโ bodies were temples and that our entire purpose in life depended
on our staying โfit as fiddles.โ But then he winked at me as though he didnโt
believe a word of what he had just said. While we were bantering and enjoying
the warm May breeze, a young man parked his car beside the bus. His hair was so
pale it shone platinum; it looked too beautiful to be natural. He almost sprang
out of car while whistling โQueen of the Slipstream.โ His whistling sounded
pitch-perfect to my ears. He wore a tan suede jacket, faded jeans and light
brown leather boots. He was tall and thin with a girlishly smooth complexion. He
looked at me, laughed and spun around in a fast, full circle, โGolly, dolly
bird, youโre gorgeous!โ Mr. Steeple laughed, but he straightened his spine and
suddenly looked absolutely alert.
The young man looked at me, the
bus, back at me and then he asked Mr. Steeple, โIs she a school-girl?โ
โNot exactly although youโre
not far off. Iโm her bus driver. The others are inside shopping.โ Mr. Steeple
had moved protectively between the young man and me.
โHow old are you?โ the young
stranger asked, looking directly into my surprised eyes.
โIโm fourteen and you?โ My
boldness shocked me, but in an exciting way. Finally! Something unscripted was
happening in my life.
The young manโs expression
changed from eager and curious to brooding. All he said was โAhโ, but he
stretched it out to sound like โaaaaaaaaaaaah.โ That made me giggle and the
tension dissipated. Suddenly we were three chums who had known and liked one
another for a long, long time.
He told us that his name was
Allen Chisholm, that he was eighteen years old and that he was an assistant
chef at a vegetarian restaurant in Amersham-On-The-Hill. When I heard that, I
blurted out, โThatโs brilliant! Weโre vegetarians.โ
โYes, I know,โ he responded and
I realised that he understood precisely who and what I was. โSo what do they call you, sweetheart?โ he asked me. I
was feeling playful and sexy and rebellious and I played along. โWell, he calls
me Brigitte, but my name is Sophie.โ
Allen lit a cigarette and
offered one to Mr. Steeple, who readily accepted. They began talking about me,
which should have made me feel uncomfortable, but it didnโt.
Allen said, โSheโs special,
isnโt she? Thereโs something about her. Sheโs so alive! It makes you want to
hide her, doesnโt it? I know that a lot of that goes on.โ
Mr. Steeple looked alarmed.
โOh, I donโt know about that! I donโt fancy prison or exile. But it does make
you question the system. Theyโre just like orphans, all of them, and they know
but they donโt know.โ
I realised they were discussing
me as though I werenโt there, but it didnโt bother me whatsoever. I felt a new
sensation. It made me short of breath. It made me weak in the knees. It was
hope, and I didnโt know if I liked it or not.
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